story i was telling you about (a while back)

Chrysanthemum 

My eyes shot open to the unpleasant sound of my alarm. Annoyance with myself settled as I realized I had forgotten to turn the thing off the night before. It looked beautiful outside, untouched, but I smacked the snooze button as hard as I could. I was not ready for a new day yet. 9 minutes later I kicked out of bed. As I walked through the upstairs hallway, I could smell the intoxicating smell of baking cookies. I walked into the chaotic kitchen and gave my mother a kiss before I headed into my front yard. I wished the neighbors stupid dog would shut up, and as  I heard rustling in my bushes, I rushed over to make sure he had not stomped my carefully tended garden. As I saw no damage, I let out a sigh of relief. In the corner of my eye, I saw a rainbow reflecting off the dew on the grass. I took off my sandals and walked barefoot around in the grass. I waved goodbye to my workaholic neighbor heading off in her ford to new jersey. I looked up in the trees and heard the birds chirping at one another. Feeling satisfied, I started to head inside. 

Then something caught my eye. I turned around to see what it was. It was the prettiest, whitest, fullest chrysanthemum I had ever seen! No leaves had fallen around it to rob it of its claim, and it had chosen the healthiest patch of  grass in my front yard to make its domain. A bee had noticed it as well as I, and was taking full advantage of its discovery. Its label as a weed insulted its existence. A shiver ran up my spine and I looked at cloudy sky. I ran quickly back inside to get my raincoat and my breakfast of lemonade and cookies. I sat on my porch trying to seep in the beauty of the flower as I ate, and it started to rain. I took my last bite, and waited for the rain to stop, growing sleepy.

 The sudden absence of noise woke me up, and I saw the rain had finally stopped. I wanted to go back inside, but I wanted to continue to observe the discovery I had made that morning. I slowly walked on the wet lawn without my shoes, with full intention of picking my flower. My cat walked over to me, and meowed a meow of disapproval, as if she knew my intentions. As I looked into her thin irised eyes, I changed my mind and turned around to go inside and live out the rest of my day, thinking about the chrysanthemum, hoping it would last forever.

2 (or 4) things i want to hear thoughts about

blogging, hmm.

well its due time.

2 subjects today.

1. apologizing.

why do we apologize so much? and for things we definitely cant control? things that are not our fault? and is it a good thing?

maybe im alone in this flaw, but i want to address it anyway. i find myself apologizing at least once a minute, and i know its annoying. do i feel guilty? comment...

2. spiritual war!

ugh bible class, but whats new?

the name Kay Arthur results in such revulsion from me its sad.

she did a whole "teaching" (advertisement really) on how we are witnessing to God and angels and demons. 

which i do NOT agree with.

me- hi. i go to a nondenominational school

bystander- what do you learn?

me-  about how wrong my teachings are and how i have to bend into a smaller mold. basically how im wrong in general.

bystander- you go to ets, dont you.

me- yup.

ugh! anyway. this women takes a single verse from the entire book of ephesians (6:12) , (and the bible) and decides that things in heaven need witnessing. and that we are fighting the spiritual forces trying to take down jesus. thoughts please.

3. (i know i said 2) the opposite of chrisitianity.

ive been writing this post over 2 days and today i was with my mother and some of her friends talking about another believer. apparently the women has been doing a bible study at her church and was showing the cirriculum she was using to "susie". susie was telling my mom that the book was teaching socialism, not chrisitianity. (those are opposites, you know) susie said this believer was being misled. it made me sad, because i love susie, shes a very dear friend of mine. i feel shes being misled.

and 4. end times

ive learned to focus on life before death, but its still interesting. ive been talking about the signs with different people, and i question things like a one world gov't and currency. just because them happening means jesus is on his way, does that mean theyre bad? more thoughts please...

i know i havent really said much, but im hoping this post is more of a dicussion starter. 

love you guys!

um.. random things.

so I'm writing a post as i wait for someone to get on chat. 

Ive decided to become vegetarian. well at least cut out red meat.

and i think I'm going to try to wear more dresses and skirts. they are so much more free.

on a different note, i was thinking about writing a blog at school today. and i don't remember what i was thinking about writing about then, but i just thought i should mention it. ha ha.

i was reading the bible in bible class today (which is a rarity i assure you) and i came across something interesting. somewhere where i was reading it was talking about peter being shown a vision where there was a whole bunch of unclean animals and God tells him to eat. (of the unclean animals) peter tells God that he has never eaten anything unclean. peter wonders what the vision means. 

later, it is revealed that it means that he now has to share the good news with the gentile too.

so Jesus came for the Jews, and the disciples are the ones that spread to the gentiles.

Ive heard my pastor say that many times, and i always took it as blasphemous. 

dont take this the wrong way. i realize jesus died for all nations. he just came for the jews first.

you know, and ive thought about this a lot, have you ever asked yourself why God chose the jews? i definitely have. many say because God was preparing a bloodline for Jesus. but God could have chosen any race at all to serve his purpose. but he chose the jews. leave your feedback :)

so ive been listening to clair de lune by debussy, which i have fallen in love with. i like it almost as much as raindrop by chopin.

and michael is going to say something to the effect of, "i told you so. just trust me!"

haha.

well thats all for now. 

leave comments! :)