irritating

a facebook friend put this up as a note. i was very... frustrated with it to say the least. anywho here it is:

To all my Democrat friends:
Please accept with no obligation, implied or implicit, my best wishes for an environmentally conscious, socially responsible, low-stress, non-addictive, gender-neutral celebration of the winter solstice holiday, practiced within the most enjoyable traditions of the religious persuasion of your choice, or secular practices of your choice, with respect for the religious/secular persuasion and/or traditions of others, or their choice not to practice religious or secular traditions at all. I also wish you a fiscally successful, personally fulfilling and medically uncomplicated recognition of the onset of the generally accepted calendar year 2010, but not without due respect for the calendars of choice of other cultures whose contributions to society have helped make America great. Not to imply that America is necessarily greater than any other country nor the only America in the Western Hemisphere. Also, this wish is made without regard to the race, creed, color, age, physical ability, religious faith or sexual preference of the wish.



To all my Republican friends:
Merry Christmas and Happy New Year!

christmas eve.

ive always found breaks from school a good time to reflect. on what you ask? on how petty the whole thing really is, christmas i mean. and i know it sounds scroogey and cliche, but thats what its come to nowadays. its the day before christmas eve. im listening to beautiful instrumental music, im warm although my always cold fingers are holding to their legacy. but if future shadi were to visit my room or even house right now, they would never guess its christmas time. although there is a christmasy snowman on the wrapper of the butterscotch im eating. every year, i look forward to christmas, the gifts, the sales, the excuses to shop... but every year i wake up on christmas day and i feel exactly the same as the day before, and the day before that, and the day before that.* just a little more disappointed. i wish santa were real, so he could visit me, hold me, ask me what i want, and i would simply ask for a day that feels different. life is underwhelming, and holidays are false hope for change.

anywho, today i saw the movie 'up in the air'. it wouldnt recommend it if you dont like r rated content, but it was most definitely thought provoking. its about a man who spends most of the year up in the air, in air planes traveling because he fires people for a living. can you imagine the thrill of always seeing the world from above? would it make the world feel big, and you small? or you big, and the world small? can you imagine traveling the same distance as going round trip to the moon 20 times? i think it would be spectacular. i love flying, and travel. i love airport food and drinks in the planes, and just the whole thing. but i dont know if i could be alone that often. technically the guy is homeless for goodness sake, thats pretty extreme. anywho...

i will blog more, i will blog more, i will blog more... etc.
just so you know. (new years res.)

so goodbye.
*on a side note, im quite the opposite about new years. im painfully aware of the passing time. i remember the transition between 07 and 08 where i claimed i had an 07 bubble that people could visit if they wanted to, and it surrounded me and kept me safe. talk about stuck in the past...