im in the mood for a blog. that mood where you feel lke nothing matters at all. ever. anything we do is completely pointless. honestly thats true anything we do without God is nothing. God? does he even exist? dont answer that, it doesnt matter what you say, it wont satisfy me. right now im just going to love. thats all that matters. i think. ughhh.
okay so i said there was going to be a story. not in the mood. but whatever.
its my story.
as ive grown ive asked all the questions with no answers. the hardest was that my uncle was going to hell. wth? (no pun intended) whats wrong with beliving differently than me? we are only humans, what we think doesnt matter. watever. so i became an agnostic sort of deist. i was at ets like this for forever.
that was until one night when i was lying in my bed and i basically told God that if he wanted me to follow him ever, He would have to get me, not the other way because i had tried it the other way. he came, tangibly. i FELT him. i loved him.
thats it, but now i wonder if it wasnt the god i thought it was.
anyway, leave feedback. or not. it doesnt matter. right now, nothing does.
Tuesday, January 6, 2009
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