im in the mood for a blog. that mood where you feel lke nothing matters at all. ever. anything we do is completely pointless. honestly thats true anything we do without God is nothing. God? does he even exist? dont answer that, it doesnt matter what you say, it wont satisfy me. right now im just going to love. thats all that matters. i think. ughhh.
okay so i said there was going to be a story. not in the mood. but whatever.
its my story.
as ive grown ive asked all the questions with no answers. the hardest was that my uncle was going to hell. wth? (no pun intended) whats wrong with beliving differently than me? we are only humans, what we think doesnt matter. watever. so i became an agnostic sort of deist. i was at ets like this for forever.
that was until one night when i was lying in my bed and i basically told God that if he wanted me to follow him ever, He would have to get me, not the other way because i had tried it the other way. he came, tangibly. i FELT him. i loved him.
thats it, but now i wonder if it wasnt the god i thought it was.
anyway, leave feedback. or not. it doesnt matter. right now, nothing does.
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I think we've all felt the inevitable realization of futility. It is, to a point, true: anything we do outside of the love of God has no point. But don't think only about that, or you'll drive yourself insane.
ReplyDeleteIt is hard to accept that a loving God would condemn anyone to a burning lake of fire. During ORUEF, for both years, every night my roommate Mark and I would stay up for a few hours just talking about theology. One time, we came across the issue of Hell, which was interesting.
I think we've gone off course when we say that Hell is a nine-ringed burning lake of fire, an eternal pit of pain and torment where people burn forever. That's inane. We do not have two choices in life: to be a Christian or to not be a Christian. The choice is to accept God's love or reject God's love. I believe that Hell is God's final act of mercy, to be sent to the one place where his love is not. The fire metaphor is what it will probably feel like to be completely away from God.
I still have a lot of questions about that, but for now I'll just do what Jesus told us to do. Share His love.
To the question of whether or not God exists, I offer what convinced me. It may satisfy you, it may not, but this realization is what did it for me.
We exist in the third dimension. Our three-dimensional world is an infinite number of galaxies called the universe, seemingly orbiting around one point. Each galaxy is a group of stars orbiting around a supermassive black hole; our own galaxy, the Milky Way, has about 400,000,000,000 stars. Each star's great mass attracts satellites of rock, sometimes massive and sometimes miniature; the largest of these are called planets. These form a system.
Our system is called the Solar system, after our star Sol. Our planet, Earth, is the third planet from the sun. If it was any closer to the Sun, we would be scorched; if it were any farther away, we would freeze. If it were any larger, we would not be able to walk because of the gravity; if it were any smaller, we would not be able to jump for fear of floating away. An atmosphere is formed on our planet of 78% nitrogen gas and 21% oxygen gas, and 1% other gases. We require oxygen to breathe. If there were any more oxygen in the atmosphere, lighting a match would start a flash fire; any less, we would not be able to breathe. On the planet are carbon-based life forms, called organisms, and we, humans, are the dominant organisms, so we like to think.
Organisms are made of smaller organisms called cells. Cells are composed of cytoplasm and a central nucleus. All matter, however, is composed of small particles called atoms. Atoms consist of a nucleus, positively-charged protons and neutrally-charged neutrons, and around the nucleus orbit negatively-charged electrons. Protons and neutrons are part of a family of particles called baryons, which are composed of three quarks linked in a triangular shape. These are the smallest known particles.
It is not the infinitely large universe or the infinitely small quarks that convinces me. It’s the fact that our universe remains parallel in its design, from the universe to galaxies to systems to planets to cells to atoms, the largest to the small. And that could only be the work of a designer.
thanks micheal.
ReplyDeletei know he exists, but which designer? is the god we think is God god?
Well, you're right in saying we can't know for sure, until we die that is. There are a few reasons I rest assured in the God of Christianity.
ReplyDeleteC.S. Lewis has a postulate called the "Lord, Liar, Lunatic" theory on Jesus Christ. I'll expound on that a little.
Jesus Christ clearly existed. There's enough evidence for that. Since he was definitely real, there are only a few routes to address the fact that he said he was God:
1) He was lying.
2) He was crazy.
3) His works were greatly exaggerated.
4) He was telling the truth.
His massive following, and the fact that his words still dictate lives today for me exclude 1 and 2. The fact that at least four different accounts were written for his life at different times and match almost perfectly seems to exclude 3 as well. We're left with 4, and, since he followed Jehovah, I'd say Jehovah is the God we're looking for.
I sometimes have the same questions. If God loves us then why....
ReplyDeleteBut then I think about some of the people I know. And their attitude toward God is just so oblivious. They don't even pretend to care.
If I was God I would be pretty mad just the first time they say they hate me or are mad at me for whatever reason. But the thing is God isn't like that (thank God) and he does give us that opportunity.
I completely understand how you feel about your uncle. I feel that way about so many of my friends. And I've realized that the only thing that I can do if I REALLY care about them is love them. They will see God's love eventually if I just keep trying to show it to them.
Don't worry. Everyone has doubts everynow and then. It's probably the most normal thing ever.
Someone once told me that you might not always feel God's love, but that love is not a feeling. Do you always feel like your parents love you? Of course not (and if you do, well then you're certainly much better than I am. lol). But ultimately they do love you, even though you sometimes don't think they do. They're always there.
And your parents are human. So imagine God - who is ever present and unconditionally loving.
Well I think i definately wrote alot. So I guess that's enough for now.
Love ya!!